Life Is Precious

Teen suicide. It's a horrible trend, but it's still happening. I don't know what those poor kids are going through, but whatever it was, someone needed to be there to tell them to KEEP PUSHING. I admit, I went through that phase in my life back in middle school, when I was insecure, bullied, family problems, I felt like I had no control and there wouldn't be an end. I did contemplate how and when to kill myself...but I never did. The only thing that helped me express my angst, was writing. I simply wrote about my problems. I still write today in different ways.

Back then I kept wondering, "Why, and how could God treat me this way? Why do I have to suffer?" I literally thought I was the only one in the world who had problems and NO ONE could help me. I didn't talk to my friends about it, nor my family members. I put on a mask everyday and pretended like everything was fine.

I don't know how I made it through those tough years, but I'm glad I did. Now that I look back, God has always been with me NO MATTER WHAT. There is a reason why I felt so lonely, there is a reason why I have GERD, but I'm just glad I can still breathe and smile. I have friends and family who care about me, so taking my life away would just be too selfish of me. I have goals and dreams to accomplish, so why cut my life short just because I can't find a way to push through the rough days? There's no way I could give the devil the satisfaction. I've got things to do, people and places to see, my life can not end like this.

Like I said, I don't know what everyone is going through, I just wish that those who are depressed can find SOMETHING that can help them PUSH. You have to go through a storm in order to see a rainbow. It sounds cheesy but it helped me.